I Am Hurt, I Am Sorry

Wooh! It is my first time to write on a blog. To tell you honestly I don’t know what to say. There are lot of things popping on my mind but I don’t know how to convey them. That’s one of the problem about me, expressing my thoughts. It’s kinda hard for me to tell to other people what I really feel. That’s why sometimes I just keep it to myself or i just write it on a note. And now this is what I am doing, I write it here. These past few days there are lot of things happened. They are really driving me crazy. I just can’t carry the weight on my chest. It’s pulling me down. And I don’t like that shit! There are lot of pressures. On work, on love life on everything. Wooh!
I broke up with my girl. I thought this is what I want but I’m wrong. As time passing by, I am hurting. I am terribly guilty though I know this is really not my fault. There are things have been going on my mind those times that i overlooked her. Must I completely discard her on my life?And the answer is yes. I think I made the right decision no matter how self centered and conceited my reasons are. I know it will make her happy. As of this time I don’t have any regrets the time I spent to her. I felt true happiness though it came to an end. I can’t blame her that she have rage in her heart towards me. She can’t blame me also if I did this. We both know what really are the reasons of this ending.
Well anyway I just wish that this note can somehow help to loosen the tightness I feel in my chest. I respect her to be furious about me but I hope that she will relish the moment we have spent together. And I am looking forward for a brand new friendship after this.

Here’s the photo of us. Though we seperated our ways, still she became  part of my life.