While writing this, there are lot of things running on my mind (napagod na nga ko kakahabol sa kanila, tsk tsk).

But there’s someone no matter how I tried I couldn’t capture. Perhaps she doesn’t know how sincerely I am to have her attention.

It is you that someone I am talking about. (oo ikaw nga, wala ng iba, weeh, di ka naniniwala, bahala ka!)

Maybe you are wondering why still you. ( Di ko nga rin alam e, pinilit ko naman, pero ikaw pa rin, ang tindi talaga)

Almost 2? 3? 4 years? We haven’t seen each other. ( antagal na no? di ko na nga matandaan kung kelan talaga e )

Many things already changed. ( Maliban sa gwapo pa rin ako at ikaw? Hmmmm? Di ko alam e, hahaha, of course you’re always pretty as ever, naks!)

We found ourselves with somebody’s arms. Not mine, not yours.( Hmm? ano daw?kaw na lang bahala umintindi, nyahaha)

And I contemplated the idea of forgetting  about us. ( meron nga bang “US”? Asa..) I thought I already found the woman who can fix the heart you left so broken. ( so dramatic ha.)

But fate is such a joker.( sus lagi naman) The one I thought I could spent my life with would be the one I cursed not to be with.( mukhang bang bitter, wahahah)

That time I could say I was totally wrecked and tormented. (oo dumating ung puntong yan sa buhay ko, di lang halata.)

Despite of what had happened, there was one thing went through on my mind and I admit it, YOU ARE SO IRREPLACEABLE! I mean it.

I went to another relationship hoping it  could heal the pain but I ended up thinking and wishing it was you I am with.

Yah, I am stupid of having this idea, having you in my arms, but this is the fact.

I am aware that this fact can change again everything, and I am scared. But I conquer that fear just to let you know what my heart really feels.

I am happy that you are my Patrick and I am your Spongebob. I pray it will remain no matter what happen. No matter where life may bring us.

A cliché may it sound but you’ll always here I in my heart. Promise!

Hindi ko ginusto na mambastos pero pinilit mo ko. Inubos mo pasensya ko. OO, alam ko matalino ka, pero di ibig sabihin nun alam mo na lahat. Hindi ko matanggap ang linyang binitawan mo saken: “ Alam mo ang problema? Yung attitude mo!!” Pasensya na po, binabagay ko lang sa kaharap ko. Siguro nga  nakapagtaas ako ng boses ng mga oras na un pero pinilit mo ko. Huwag mo ipilit ang bagay na di mo naman talaga saklaw. Mundo ko to, alam ko ginagawa ko. Kung gusto mong pasukin pag-aralan mo. Hindi masama tumanggap ng pagkakamali. Aminin mo man o hindi pero nagkamali ka. Huwag mong isisi sakin ang bagay na di abot ng iyong utak. Ayaw mong makipagtalo. Pero ayaw mo namang magpatalo. Hindi talaga tayo magkakasundo. Sayang mabait ka pa naman. Hay buhay……

which we travel free and unhampered,

but a maze of passages,

through which we must seek our way,

lost and confused, now and again

checked in a blind alley.

But always, if we have faith,

God will open a door for us,

Not perhaps one that we ourselves

would ever have thought of,

But one that will ultimately

prove good for us.”

A. J. Cronin

Do you ever heard or read the story “Who Moved My Cheese”? It is the story about the four characters who take place on a maze finding for a cheese – a cheese being a metaphor for what we want to have in life, whether it is a job, a relationship, money, or anything.

Any of as have our own idea of what cheese is that something we believe that makes us happy. In this story maze represents the place where we look what we want.

Anything we have right now is just momentary. It can be lost anytime. Even without our understanding. We have to be prepared for whatever chances may life bring us. Be ready for any changes.

There comes a time in my life that I look for a new cheese. Something that will completely make me happy. The one that will suffice my existent. On the moment of searching, I found different kinds of cheeses. I tried to savor each of them, but only few can complacent my want.

Courtesy of Bayani fernando. May angal ka?!

The real reason why I went to our place was because it was fiesta. I remember last year, it was my first time to be away with my family in an occasion since I have to work somewhere here in SBMA. My mom really whimpered and I loathed that so I promised that it won’t be happened again (so dramatic, haha).

On the day of the rainy fiesta, that was Thursday my cousin invited me in an inuman with our other pinsan and barkadas. That is the usual scene, the barikan, when we are together, Tatak Batangueño! LOLS:p. We slurped spree in the house of one of our tropa who is already in London to feel he was also banging with us (we really miss you, dude).  I was very intoxicated that I didn’t know how I got home. I woke up laid on my bed, annoying with the noise. It was my ate. She was very grumpy because I vomited out in my bed. Oh shit, so gross! Haha… After I heard some sermon after that incident, they informed me that my Nanay (grandmother) already passed away. Though I expected that to be happened, the last time I saw her I knew her time was coming to an end, still I was in shocked. “Si Nanay talaga hindi pa humirit kay Lord na kung pwede kinabukusan na lang sya kunin, hay”.I felt guiltiness inside because while I was celebrating, my Nanay was in the state of dying. On her final wake, that was the first time I looked her after she was put on coffin. I bid goodbye to her though our relationship wasn’t close that much, still I thanked her for without her my father wasn’t here and blacksword24.wordpress.com won’t exist.

I can say that vacation taught me a lot. Life brings us joy and pain. Life is too short that we should value it day by day. I learned also to drink moderately to avoid vomiting on my bed, haha.