Time Heals

In the verged of my loneliness, I found you, and you said you found me too. We experienced the same heartache that we don’t deserve. As I walked with you, the feeling of pain is healing little by little, as if you are the medicine that heals and fades the ache. We didn’t talk too much but we were comfortable in that way. We knew that behind that silence, we understand each other. “I am happy to be with you”. I said. You didn’t reply instead you held my hand and you smiled politely. I smiled back and touched your face. Everyday I learned that you are special. Like a sweetest drug that so hard to ignore. I know in my heart you are the one who will truly complete the emptiness of me, the one who will hold my hand until the rest of forever.

Then one day you made a confession, a confession that I don’t want to hear. You said that you still love him and you want him to be back. After hearing that, I was shocked. I couldn’t control my tears to fall. I wanted to explode. I wanted to run away, to skip. But I couldn’t move where I stand. I just stared at you as my tears still flowing from eyes. I wanted to shout to ask you why. I couldn’t open my mouth to tell you how much I really care about you, that I can’t lose you, that I truly love you. Then you walked away leaving me behind. On that day you left, it was like the world turned its back to me. I didn’t know where to turn to. It was so hard to wake up in the morning knowing without you in my life. I went back to the places we had been expecting you were there. But I found no you. I tried to go on but it’s your memory still lingering. I went to another relationship but still it was you I was looking for.

But the fact that time can heal the pain, now I moved on. I learned from yesterday. And I dwell for today. I leave the rage behind. I know I cannot totally discard you from my life. No matter how self centered and conceited you are for leaving me, I know deep in my heart I will always love you. I know it’s craziness but if you come back, no second thought I will accept you